This is my Dream/Goal

Someone told me, "You have no idea what you want to do with your life, so I don't want you in my life anymore."

That sentence wasn’t just inaccurate, it was straight disrespectful.

Yes, I had been listing ideas. I had been spitballing dreams. But because they weren’t categorized or laid out in a digestible roadmap, they were seen as chaotic or aimless. What this person failed to understand is that I was brainstorming out loud—not lost. There is a difference between exploration and confusion. But it became clear: they weren’t listening to understand, only to judge. And I don’t owe clarity to someone who’s failed to pursue their own life goals/career not once, not twice, but three times—someone who, despite those too many setbacks, I stood by and supported countless times, and even mentioned where I could help make it happen. Someone who creates excuses for themselves and their circumstances, and excusing it as the reason they are "forced to be this way". Someone who mentioned their own goals, kept failing and never properly pursued, over and over and over again. Someone who knows. who they want to be, but will never become because of who they are at the root. Someone who is creating and chasing a fake idealized version of themself. Ironically, when I needed just a moment of pause to recalibrate, they couldn’t do the same for me. Was it their own insecurity of their own failure? Was it an excuse to exit because of their own cheating and shortcomings? Was it projection? Or maybe just immaturity masquerading as "wisdom". However, I cannot continue to support a person who will not recognize their own shortcomings and rather run to escape their twisted version of reality. I should not support broken people that will stay broken. I am in charge of my own reality that I can shape and learn where I need to change and grow.

Either way, their exit has given me much needed clarity for my life.

Now let me tell you, clearly and confidently, what I do want from life.

Since day one, I have wanted to become a medical doctor. That has never changed. That dream has guided me through academic work in Human Biology and Neuroscience, EMT certification, and countless hours of volunteering and clinical exposure.

And yes, I chose to take a detour that most people wouldn’t expect: I became Miss Universe Japan. But that year was not a waste. It was one of the most formative periods of my life. I met world leaders and change-makers. I represented Japan on the global stage. I traveled to more than 13 countries with a purpose: to empower, to educate youth, to volunteer in underserved communities, and to advocate for causes I care deeply about, CPR education, children’s health, and equitable access to opportunity.

This phase I’m in now? It may look quiet from the outside. But it is the build-up.

Now I am studying for the MCAT. I spend hours reviewing material, doing practice questions, and reviewing "basic" knowledge. In my free time, I’m laying the groundwork for two businesses: one, a fashion brand inspired by Japanese aesthetics, and another secret project that I will unveil when the time is right. I do want to mention something I am proud of, I have scored a 518 on my first ever MCAT practice exam, and I still have 7 more months of studying to see where it can increase, I am super excited.

I’m also diving into finance: learning about passive income, long-term investment strategies, portfolio diversification, compound interest, ETFs, REITs, Roth IRAs, and building my own fund portfolio. I don’t want to simply earn money, I want to grow it smartly and sustainably.

So, no. I am not lost. I need to be more knowledgable than those who have wronged me. At night watching and listening to podcasts have not been easy, I have to gaslight myself into why I need to learn this information, and type it out in a way that makes it easier to understand. However telling myself how this will be beneficial to me has made it easier, and having small talks with people I meet through work about this has made me learn more things, more than ever.

Next year, I will be applying to medical schools. I’ve already secured a research lab position to strengthen my clinical and academic experience. I’ll continue volunteering, shadowing, and learning. But I will also stay true to my creative passions: documenting the process, filming my life in high-quality vlogs, capturing not the successes, but the raw moments of growth.

The year after, I hope to receive my acceptance letters. I will enter medical school—finally, officially. I plan to travel occasionally, not as an escape, but as fuel. Small spontaneous trips to refresh the soul. I will not plan when, but when the time is right.

After four years, I will become Dr. Kaya Chakrabortty. I might even pursue a dual MD/PhD program if the opportunity aligns with my research goals. Right now, I’m most interested in dermatology, ophthalmology, and anesthesiology—fields that require precision, empathy, and deep knowledge.

Match Day already makes me nervous, and I haven’t even applied yet.

And unlike my academic pursuits, I will continue developing my businesses. By the time I turn 30, I hope to have launched both fully, with steady revenue streams. My financial assets and investments will be working for me. I aim to own property, maybe even rent it out to generate income. I want to be a landowner, a business owner, and an investor. I've recently secured my first passive form of income which has been greatly helpful to start and show me what I am capable of doing and growing.

And yes, I have dreams beyond medicine.

I will build my dream home. I met an architect during a recent photoshoot, and we’ve started planning! Yes, you can call me ambitious, but I believe in visualizing what you want. It makes me optimistic towards the future and what I plan on doing. It will be a home that reflects comfort, elegance, and warmth—a fusion of Victorian romance and modern design. A place with a fireplace library, a sunroom, a massive patio, and three dogs: Tsuki and two future furry companions. Everyday coming home will be a dream, it will be my resting place. I've been doing a lot on the side, but I just wanted to get the ball rolling, because the sketches take long and I know there will be tweaks made along the way. And no I may not build this house and buy one instead, but it will inspire me with what I desire.

And one day aka when I'm 35-40 years old, I will open a small restaurant. In the morning, it will serve warm homemade meals and seasonal pastries. At night, it will transform into an intimate restaurant with a rotating menu inspired by my travels and moods. It will be a space for connection, laughter, and comfort food from the heart. Cooking is how I show love. Sharing is how I create legacy.

This is my vision. It is clear. It is personal. It is ever-evolving.

And most importantly, it is mine.

So if someone ever says again that I don’t know what I want in life, they simply haven’t been paying attention.

Because I’ve always known. I just never needed anyone's permission to be told how to set goals.